Past actions - Poem by me

Hey everyone Thought I would share one of my poems on here definetly watch the video as it tells a little of why I wrote it .
enjoy

Past actions - Thomas Wlodyka

When I look at my past,
My heart beats so fast;
The things I've seen, with my eyes,
It makes me stop to realize.

I do not regret the things I have done;
But this burden,I carry, can weugh a ton.
I've learned alot of things, that I will not regret;
But sometimes I look deep inside, and know it would be better to forget.

I do not wish my life to anyone;
At times, i wish I could run;
Runawayfrom all the things I've seen,
So my thoughts, for once, could just be clean.

I feel these things, I know I must face;
So I can just for once, be in that perfect place.
I've learned alot of things, through my past;
And I know, not to keep theses feelings last.

I have the best, life can give me;
So I have decided to let these burdens go free.

Oh! The Places You'll Go! by Dr. Suess

was doing some internet surfing and came across this poem by Dr. Suess and thought i would share this with you today .

Oh! The Places You’ll Go!
 by the incomparable Dr. Seuss

Congratulations!
 Today is your day.
 You’re off to Great Places!
 You’re off and away!

You have brains in your head.
 You have feet in your shoes.
 You can steer yourself any direction you choose.
 You’re on your own. And you know what you know. And YOU are the guy who’ll decide where to go.

You’ll look up and down streets. Look’em over with care. About some you will say, “I don’t choose to go there.” With your head full of brains and your shoes full of feet, you’re too smart to go down a not-so-good street.

And you may not find any you’ll want to go down. In that case, of course, you’ll head straight out of town. It’s opener there in the wide open air.

Out there things can happen and frequently do to people as brainy and footsy as you.

And when things start to happen, don’t worry. Don’t stew. Just go right along. You’ll start happening too.

Oh! The Places You’ll Go!

You’ll be on your way up!
 You’ll be seeing great sights!
 You’ll join the high fliers who soar to high heights.

You won’t lag behind, because you’ll have the speed. You’ll pass the whole gang and you’ll soon take the lead. Wherever you fly, you’ll be best of the best. Wherever you go, you will top all the rest.

Except when you don’t.
 Because, sometimes, you won’t.

I’m sorry to say so but, sadly, it’s true that Bang-ups and Hang-ups can happen to you.

You can get all hung up in a prickle-ly perch. And your gang will fly on. You’ll be left in a Lurch.

You’ll come down from the Lurch with an unpleasant bump. And the chances are, then, that you’ll be in a Slump.

And when you’re in a Slump, you’re not in for much fun. Un-slumping yourself is not easily done.

You will come to a place where the streets are not marked. Some windows are lighted. But mostly they’re darked. A place you could sprain both your elbow and chin! Do you dare to stay out? Do you dare to go in? How much can you lose? How much can you win?

And if you go in, should you turn left or right…or right-and-three-quarters? Or, maybe, not quite? Or go around back and sneak in from behind? Simple it’s not, I’m afraid you will find, for a mind-maker-upper to make up his mind.

You can get so confused that you’ll start in to race down long wiggled roads at a break-necking pace and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space, headed, I fear, toward a most useless place.

The Waiting Place…for people just waiting.

Waiting for a train to go or a bus to come, or a plane to go or the mail to come, or the rain to go or the phone to ring, or the snow to snow or waiting around for a Yes or No or waiting for their hair to grow. Everyone is just waiting.

Waiting for the fish to bite or waiting for wind to fly a kite or waiting around for Friday night or waiting, perhaps, for their Uncle Jake or a pot to boil, or a Better Break or a string of pearls, or a pair of pants or a wig with curls, or Another Chance. Everyone is just waiting.

No! That’s not for you!
 Somehow you’ll escape all that waiting and staying. You’ll find the bright places where Boom Bands are playing. With banner flip-flapping, once more you’ll ride high! Ready for anything under the sky. Ready because you’re that kind of a guy!

Oh, the places you’ll go! There is fun to be done! There are points to be scored. There are games to be won. And the magical things you can do with that ball will make you the winning-est winner of all. Fame! You’ll be famous as famous can be, with the whole wide world watching you win on TV.

Except when they don’t. Because, sometimes, they won’t.

I’m afraid that some times you’ll play lonely games too. Games you can’t win ‘cause you’ll play against you.

All Alone!
 Whether you like it or not, Alone will be something you’ll be quite a lot.

And when you’re alone, there’s a very good chance you’ll meet things that scare you right out of your pants. There are some, down the road between hither and yon, that can scare you so much you won’t want to go on.

But on you will go though the weather be foul. On you will go though your enemies prowl. On you will go though the Hakken-Kraks howl. Onward up many a frightening creek, though your arms may get sore and your sneakers may leak. On and on you will hike. And I know you’ll hike far and face up to your problems whatever they are.

You’ll get mixed up, of course, as you already know. You’ll get mixed up with many strange birds as you go. So be sure when you step. Step with care and great tact and remember that Life’s a Great Balancing Act. Just never forget to be dexterous and deft. And never mix up your right foot with your left.

And will you succeed?
 Yes! You will, indeed!
 (98 and ¾ percent guaranteed.)

Kid, you’ll move mountains!
 So…be your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Bray or Mordecai Ale Van Allen O’Shea, you’re off to Great Places!
 Today is your day!
 Your mountain is waiting.
 So…get on your way!

New Dog Photos

Hello gang,  it is yours truly again.

wanted to share with you some new photos of my dogs , they were being very sweet and were posing for the camera lol , usually they are not like this so I have to get them while i can lol ... enjoy

Sasha amazon warrior

Bailey always wanting to say hi

Fozzie trying to be nosy , and see whats going on

Ginger , she is about to pounce on Fozzie for stealing her squeeky toy

Hope you enjoy them as I did taking these pics

My first video on youtube

Well it is official, i got my new bloggie today, and I figured that I would shoot some videos of my dogs and then decided to go ahead and post that video on youtube.

Hope everyone likes it, gives you a chance to see my babies lol

Birthday tomorrow June 23

Well its another Birthday coming and I will be turning 31 this year the numbers keep adding and adding , but i really dont feel like I am getting older.
I  want to thank everyone who has been sending me Birthday wishes . I greatly appreciate it and I appreciate you all , who may be reading this today.

Some of my goals this year ( I tend to set Birthday goals every year something like a new year resolution kinda thing ) will be

1. I want to continue to loose weight , another 22 pounds would be sufficient

2. I want to write 20 new poems this year.

3. I want to inspire more people to be themselves this year and not have to follow the crowd.

4. want to be able to learn a few new things , perhaps maybe learn a language , to play an instrument

5 . maybe start a vlog on youtube . that would be a big push for me, of coarse I probably wouldnt have that many followers , just like here not too many follow this , but i do it anyway to put my thoughts on here .

I guess I will leave it at 5 this year .
again thank you all for the birthday wishes
Thomas

p.s i share the cake with you lol

Tips for coming out

Was going through youtube as usual , and came across this video on 40 tips for coming out , I thought it was really cool to get that many people to give some advice to someone who may need some help coming out . but in all, its when you want to, if you choose to.

enjoy the video

change

Was watching this video from Ryan James Yezak and he was talking about moving on .definetly a great video to watch , I do want to piggy back on some of what he was saying, sometimes we are scared of change , but you never know how it will be until you make that step and when I mean you , I mean you have to make it know one can tell you to do it , it has to come from inside you. We can be where we are but always we have to move on , learn new things , take chances in life , open yourself up to more people, tear down that wall that you have built to push away people , start a new hobby, see new places, leave a bad situation, the lost could go on and on, but you have to move on and continue to live life. don't go backwards or stand still, move foward .
Thank you James for a awesome message. and if you would like to share what you will be moving on to let me know.

Lady Gaga - Edge of Glory Video

Well Lady Gaga has officially released yet another music video from one of songs, Edge of Glory
I will have to say usually I do not care too much for her videos, as i think her videos do not match up with her songs. But I simply love her music, and they way she is able to be herself and so many people love her for that.
The thing I love the most about this video, is that she kept it very simple , and you just saw her and the sax player. And also shows a softer side to her, for if you listen to some of her interviews she had a real care for people and has a wonderful heart .
So I leave you with her new video, enjoy little monsters .

weirdest dessert

Ok I have the weirdest thing that I sinply love for a dessert. When I go to friendly's I normally get watermelon sherbert , with a peanut butter sauce topping ,. OMG it is so delicious . the only downside is that I can only get it whenb I  go to Florida .
What is your fav ?

Bloggie for my birthday

ok I am so interested in a bloggie camcorder/camera . I have been eyeing it in the store and i think i will get this for one of my to me from me b-day presents http://www.walmart.com/ip/Sony-MHS-TS20-B/15125961 if anyone has had one of these let me know what you think of it .

Gossip

Ok today was something else , I was talking to a coworker of mine and basically was just discussing the idea of changing areas she take mine and I take hers. Well she said that she would think about it. So I told someone what I was thinking of doing, nothing set in stone because she didn't even say yes or anything. well this person told someone who then told someone else and this other person loves to talk alot and it got back to me within 2 hours . I mean come on . I just don't get why people have to gossip about others . goes to show you if ever you hear someone say I have something to tell you , but don't tell anyone else 9 times out of 10 they definetly will. so choose what you say to others as it will sometimes bite you from behind , like it did for me.

Coming out

As Most have you know I had posted my coming out story on interpals , but will share it here as well .
when I was in my teens, i knew that I was gay . But it was hard for me to come out for one i was in a christain private school, where they pretty much frowned on the word gay. I also lived with my grandmother who was very prejudice and set in her own ways.
So I kinda isolated myself, for I couldnt get close to my friends as i could not be who I truly was, felt like i was in a dark cave. When school ended I had joined a church , and eventually joined the praise team there, which to me was the best thing for me as I was very shy in school and this kinda let me burst out of my bubble or shell as you would say. I was one of the lead singers there, and actually was on the praise team for about 2 and a half years. Again I started doubting myself, and then questioning of how can i be on this stage singing being gay is a sin , everything i was taught from school , the feelings i have is wrong. I then decided to talk to the praise team leader and said that I was stepping down and eventually left the church. (I regret doing this to this very day, so I guess if i could ever say if I regret something in my life, I would say it was stepping down from what I enjoyed. I don't know what or where I would have gone to if i stayed on the praise team, who knows maybe see the world.But as they say things happen for a reason , and am very grateful for the steps that I have walked in life as it has made be be the person I am today , and am able to share this story with you , who may be having a hard time dealing with being gay or just don't know if you should or should not share with loved ones that you are gay.) But let me go on with my story, As I ended the praise team ,
I slowly started isolating myself, what was the point in being friends with people who will never know the real me, I pushed myself away from everyone, my family , my friends , and just went to work and home, and when i was at home I grew into a dark depression state. as weeks went by i isolated myself even more and also thoughts were running through my head a mile a minute .
like your not normal
you are a freak
you will go to hell
God doesnt love gays
your friends will hate you
your family will dis own you
the list goes on and on
And when you have this going in your head all day week after week, you loose grip of reality and begin to believe these things. I then had enough, I decided I was going to end my life and solve the problem
I was so close I looked in the mirror and hated what I saw staring back at me. I was thinking why me,
why can't I be like everyone else. So with tears in my eyes, I picked up the razor blades and was about to go through it, again i looked in the Mirror with my eyes so red, from crying, I then realized , I am a special person , I don't want to be like everyone , I just want to be me, and I will find a way to get through this , but in the end I will live the way I want to live, No more pleasing others , no more hiding in the caves, enjoying life to the fullest , and maybe one day share my story as I am doing now with you .
I then became more into a positive state that I was no longer going to live my life pleasing others .
I picked up the phone and called one of my friends up and she answered, and I said i really need to tell you something , and I started crying , she was like you can tell me anything , I amlost chickened out and she asked again, what is it got my nerve up and just said that i was gay.
she said is that it ,like it was no big deal . and I was just thinking i made this into such a big thing and it was nothing to her, then she was telling me that she was bi-sexual . we had a great conversation that night, and to me I felt so much better and was able to be a closer friend to her .
The very next day, I got the nerve to tell my mom, this time no tears , i just told my mom i needed to talk to her without my brother or sister being there. She said ok and I told her that I was gay, she thought I was joking , and I was just thinking who would joke about this, I assured her that this was not a joke that I was in fact gay and have been for several years, just never told anyone.
So i really didnt get a warm vibe from her, but she accepted it and moved on.
Throughout my weeks I told many of my friends and even some of my close co-workers . many was accepting , some started not talking to me much, but I just thought you know , it really didnt change who I was a few weeks ago , this is just something more you know about me and if you can't accept it and want to walk away that is totally fine , because I don't need those friends who say that they are there for you and then when you really need them, they walk away.
Now the moment of truth had to come, for me to really be happy , I had to tell my clostest family member , she was like my mom , my friend , she was my grandmother . I knew how she was and was so scared of her reaction, that she possibly would have nothing to do with me , that she would say that I am no longer part of the family. as she had done this to a cousin of mine just for being with someone of a different color .
So I went to her house and was visiting and we were in the living room , and was just looking at her, she immediately asked , what was on my mind? I told her nothing. and she said I know you too well tell me whats bothering you, there I started crying, I had the nerve to do it but just couldn't she said please tell me for she didnt want to see me in that state and not talk about it .
So i wiped my tears aside and I told her that I was gay,
she told me to come over to her and sit on her lap and gave me a huge hug and kiss like was 5 again
and she said no matter how you live your life , be who you are , as long as you are happy , she was happy and that no matter what i did , she would love me, lets just say i just broke there, because in my wildest thoughts i would have never thought that was what she would say to me.
At that moment I felt a ton of bricks being lifted from my shoulders, that I was finally able to be myslelf , finally able to live my life for me and not others .
So that is my coming out story .
But for some it is not that easy, as like i said, you could lose some close family members or friends .
and you have to do it at your time , don't rush it, take your time, you will know the right time to do it .
for some they never come out, what is so important is that you be happy , you live your life for you , do not let other people control what you say or do in this world. life is too precious to not live it to how you want it , it may not turn out how you thought it would and then again , many people just may surprise you after you tell them , and you will be able to be free from your chains .
I know that this is a difficult time for you and encourage each and everyone of you to be strong , do not feel helpless or put your self in that cave, talk to people , talk online to people who dont know you just to get it out of your system , start a journal write your thoughts down , tell it to yourself ove rand over its ok to be gay , Its ok to be happy the way I am and mean it .
So many things I want to tell you all, so much advice , but it takes you and only you that choice is yours, but remeber you are never alone , and there may be so many people who hate you and want nothing to do with you , but there are so many more that want you for just you because you are so special , and this world needs you in it , so go shine and never let anyone steal your happiness

Thomas

What are you listening to at the moment

Well for me a little bit of everything , but right now i have the new cd Lady Gaga playing in my car . Her cd is amazing from beginning to end , My fav off  of it changes from week to week as the songs are all so good .
Right now I am liking these three off the cd .

Out of these three which is your fav ?

Everything Will Fall into Place .

This is something I read which I thought was so absolutly true, and I thought I would share it here .
Everything Will Fall into Place
by Renee M. Brtalik

Life is like a giant puzzle.
Though our futures may not
be clear or turn out exactly as
we expected, each of us has the
strength inside to put the puzzle
together ~ we just have to
look for the right pieces.

It may seem impossible, but
keep striving. Life's pieces have
a way of falling into place
when you least expect it .

People showing out

I never really understood why people have to act like a fool and show out in public, I mean its like when they don't get there own way , they like to cop an attitude and raise there voices and especially when they know there wrong . it just funny how some poeple do this all the time , all it does is make them really stupid and people just stare and look at them like tehre crazy .

oh well lol

What thing did you get caught doing ?

This one is actually a funny story , but so embarassing .
When i was younger i think i was like 9 or 10 i always loved music , and of coarse dancing .
well everyone was gone for the day so i turned on mtv , that is actually when mtv had music videos on it .
and started dancing and singing , well i had the volume turned on full blast , that i didnt hear someone coming in , it was one of my moms friends , and i didnt realize she was there till the song was all over .
talk about i was so embarrassed .

Take care
Thomas

Could Lady Gaga be Madonna

I so swear that this song sounds like madonna in it .
amazing  that is all I can truely say

6/7/11
Happy Tuesday everyone hope you are having a great day.
been just listening to some youtube videos and was so into some of these videos , for many of you who do not know my favorite instrument listening to is the violin , I am not sure why , but anytime i listen to it its like the sounds go through my entire body, it has the most amazing sound , and could listen to it for hours and forget the world around me .
So out of all the instruments , which one is your favorite ?
I leave you with two that i was listening today .

http://thomas-thomasview.blogspot.com/
Take care
Big hugs

New Poem - Your going to make it in the end

Well my friends , I have written another poem , and I  hope you all enjoy this one. To me my poem means to just be your self no matter what , do not worry about what others think about you, because if they dont love you for you then they do not need to be apart of your lives. And the ones who stick around through all of the ups and downs, then those are your true friends, and those are the ones you can rely on even if its only one. I hope you enjoy this .......

You’re going to make it in the end

By Thomas Wlodyka

6/4/2011

There have been many times you felt like giving up the fight.

There are times where you felt deep inside, that you can’t do anything right.

But I say stand up, stand tall be strong and true

There is a brand new day coming toward you.

A day where you can start again, a day in which you get a fresh start

Today is a brand new day for you my friend,

It’s time to tear the past apart.

Don’t worry about the things that people may say,

For this is your start, your brand new day.

The world may not agree with how you live your life today,

And then again they may accept you for being gay.

Again I say to you stand up, stand tall be strong and true,

There is a brand new day coming toward you.

Do not let your fear of others stop you from being you,

Take the next step, it’s time to face the world, you know what you have to do.

The choice is yours no matter what, no one can make that choice.

But don’t be afraid of who you are, stand up and share your voice.

Again I say to you stand up, stand tall be strong and true,

There is a brand new day coming toward you.

You may lose some family members, you even may lose close friends,

But the ones you lose are not important, it’s the ones who

Stick with you till the end.

And when you see the ones who have remained by your side,

Just remember you’re going to make it in the end.

Items you cannot live without

Well yesterday our air conditioner died on us and we have to replace a part. which is not the bad part, but we are having high temperatures right now . yesterday was 100 degrees . I was so uncomfortable it was insane , talk about a heat wave .

So I guess with that said , my question for today is what can you not live without? I thought smaller things a while back but since yesterday and being in the heat all day, what I know cannot live without is air conditioning .

Take care and have a great day

Be you

Today was talking with some friends of mine, and started surfing the web, and I just see so many people trying to please other people and not being happy. So I encourage all of you to be yourself, dont worry about what others think. Live your life . Be happy . For life is so short not to be, and you dont want to get to a point in your life in where you start regretting things like oh if I did this a few years or if I  had asked this person out , just do it , take the chance . So many people will not always accept you for you, but i tell you this, the world is so big that there are many who will and will love you for who you are, so be you , just be you .